Friday, August 13, 2010

I'm hugging my kids a little tighter today and holding them a little longer. I am enjoying their chubby little faces and their big heart melting eyes. I can't stop myself from noticing and loving all of their little details. One of my long time friends lost her little boy last week and after attending his funeral yesterday I feel like a new mama. I have not been that spiritually uplifted in a long time. This sweet mom had every right to be angry, sad, and out of control and she handled everything with such grace and with such strength. The funeral had the most peaceful and calm spirit. As the mom spoke of her son she spoke with confidence in her father in heaven and knew that there was a bigger plan and a bigger picture. Of course she shed a few tears but she held herself together so well and took care of everything and everyone around her. I just can not get over how well she handled everything, I know Matt is so sick of me talking about it but I just came home wanting to be such a better person and such a better mom. I think this is one of those events in my life that I will never forget. I have never felt such a strong desire to prepare myself more spiritually. I know that might sound weird. But as I watched this young mom I realized that she was able to be that strong because of her testimony of the gospel. She was and is ready for anything that is coming her way, and I just kept wondering to myself how would I be if I were in her shoes? And then I just kept hoping that I would be the exact same way as she was. I look up to her so much she was an amazing example of faith and an excellent reminder of why we are here on earth. So for today let the kids scream a little louder, and fight a little longer, because today I am glad that I get to hear it!



PS if one more person dies in the next couple of weeks i am going to flip out.
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2 comments:

Bobbi said...

Oh wow Bran'. That's really sad/uplifting at the same time. Why is it that death always comes in 3's? I hope this time it's not true. Thank goodness for the Gospel, I don't know how people without it make it through tragedies. xoxoxoxox!

Erin Stones said...

Thanks for this post Brandi- I felt the same way as you but haven't had the courage to post about the whole thing yet. I haven't had the courage to post about anything these days! I can't wait to be able to see him again- but more importantly I want to be there for the reunion between mother and child, I can only imagine how wonderful that day will be for their family. My heart is still broken, but a small part was mended that day listening to the strength in the words of my sister! We need to make sure we plan a lunch date or something with her, because I am sure that the days ahead are only going to be tougher before they get better! Thanks to you and your mom being there for her, she was so uplifted by all the love and support, especially from all her life long friends! Love you guys!