I'm losing my mind

I just got back from an awesome trip to jackson Hole minus the kiddies so I really don't have any excuse for losing my mind but yet I still am. You'd think that I would come home refreshed and good to go for the next 3 or 4 months. But I already feel this incredible urge for a huge Brandi only break!! No cell phone, no kids, no voices!!! Sometimes after hours of little chatting voices the only thing I think of is the grinch and his line from the movie Oh the noise noise noise!!! (and seriously if I have to watch the grinch one more time before Dec 1st! I am going to poke my eyes out! What is it with my kids and Christmas movies?)I am embarrassed to admit this but I think the realization point that proved to me that I really might be losing my mind was yesterday afternoon I was trying to put toys away and these little multiplication cards just keep falling off the shelf, finally I just screamed and ripped them all up!! Really?? Was that necessary?? That's when I knew I had lost it!! I imediatley texted Matt and told him it was time for him to come home. The best part about all of these feelings though is that I know that I am not alone. I sat visiting teaching yesterday and the topic kept coming back to kids and how they can drive us crazy. How who would have ever thought that a trip to the grocery store or to Walmart alone would be the highlight of your day! And it is so true! I have never felt such extreme emotions and feelings. At times I feel very bipolar as one minute a goofy grin can melt my heart and the next minute I want to run away screaming where no can find me. as the saying goes "Oh the Joys of Motherhood!"