my life

Life as a mother of three... Holy Cow! It's funny how with each new thing that comes into our lives we are thrown into a whole new stage and we have to forget what we were used to and buck up and adjust to what is now and what is present! Just when things seem to be easy and comfortable life throws something else at you and I have noticed that as a couple Matt and I have really had to work on adjusting to these new stages together. With each new child our relationship has changed so much. It is so weird to look back and see how different our lives were 5 years ago, then 3 years ago and 1 yr ago etc! We have had to really rely on each other for support. We have had to grow up a ton and put our needs and wants on the back burner. I actually feel like a mommy. You know like the real ones that you always hear about and see on funny movies. I rarely get to get my hair and makeup fully finished, I have been pooped on, peed on , and spit up on (the spit up at least 5 times a day) I read stories, sing songs, do house work, and kiss owies all day long, in fear of even trying to go to the store with three children! When I do get adventurous and attempt the stores I get really mean stares and I know what they are thinking, "why can't she control that little boy" ( well let me tell you he is stronger then he looks!!) Half the time I am fighting back tears because of the looks and because of the scratches and hair pulling that I am getting as I am trying to force my child into the cart. This afternoon was definitely a scene from a movie of a mother going crazy as I am trying to make dinner I have all three children crying and trying to get my attention before the other can. I was looking everywhere for an escape but was stopped by a runny nose and two sad little eyes who just wanted a hug. Then there are the mom days where you see your child so happy and acting so goofy that your heart actually warms up and you get chills because you love this little person so much. The tender kisses and snuggles. Watching your child treat another child kindly or take care of their brother or sister. Watching them be able to write their name for the first time or jump over and over again just because they can and most of all watching them sleep and knowing that they are yours and that they love you more than anything or anyone in this whole world. At these moments all of the crying, sleepless nights, tantrums, awful store trips etc etc etc!!! All seem worth it! At these moments I am grateful that I have this opportunity to be their mother and I hope with all of my heart that I am being who they need me to be and that I am teaching them what they need to know to be a successful loving human being. At these moments I am in heaven!